I don’t quite like this. Things needs some changes. Something needs to be done. Nobody seems, to bother except me. But I believe it is because I just seems, more bothered than anybody else. I make up no problem. The problem exist by itself. If burying my head in the sand can solve the problem, I would have done that. That does not require much effort, does it? But I am not like some of those, who do such self-deceiving.
Is it their unconscious ego or fear? I suggest its one of them, maybe both. I do have an ego; I am a human being too. But I don’t think mine is so great enough to need me to become overly defensive and outward discriminating towards sensitive issues, topics that might harm my so-called reputation. I do have fear too. But I don’t think my fear suppressed my conscience, to reveal the truth and to guide the uninformed. As one can see from here, I have both. But I still go on doing what should have been done, despite all difficulty I have to face with the self-deceiving ones.
I don’t blame anyone. I just blame I was not able to be here early enough. Even when I was here, I did not do much till now. I was not ready. Now I am, there is no more excuse for me to wait any longer. If I am to leave without doing anything, not only that I let down my own conscience, I let down those who still or once cared.
Things will start, in fact they had already started. They will continue until the minimum goals have been reached, at least as long as I am still here. If one hate me, hate one’s own ego. If one fear me, fear one’s own conscience. If one simply ignores, well, continue doing that.
Now just, what is your problem?
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ADOLF LAM
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